你从未比十几岁时更活着 You are never more alive than when you're a teenager.
你的大脑充满了化学物质 Your brain is flush with chemicals
能把你的生活变成一个史诗般的故事 that can turn your life into a story of epic proportions.
一个减号感觉像普利策 An A-minus feels like the Pulitzer,
一个孤独的星期六夜晚是永恒的孤独 a lonely Saturday night is an eternity of solitude,
你的实验室伙伴成为你一生最大的爱 and your lab partner becomes the great love of your life.
然而 在我大四的开始 And yet, by the start of my senior year,
没有什么有趣或显着的 nothing interesting or remarkable
曾经发生在我身上 had ever happened to me.
我感谢我的生活 I was grateful for my life.
我有我最好的朋友 他们两个 I had my best friends... All two of them...
放松 你拿到这个了 Relax. You got this.
父母谁遇到了 ...parents who met
在我这个年龄时就坠入爱河 and fell in love when they were my age,
和我的写作 and my writing.
但平台是毫无意义的 But a platform was pointless
除非我真的有话要说 unless I actually had something to say.
我没有 And I didn't,
因为没有什么值得写的东西发生在我身上 because nothing worth writing about had ever happened to me.
然后 在我发现这份工作的那天 Then, on the day I found out about the job,
终于发生了一些事情 something finally happened.
嗨 伙计们谢谢你来 Hi, guys. Thanks for swinging by.
快进来 你要我们俩吗？ Come on in. You want us both?
是的 你们两个都很棒 Yes, both of you would be great.
加油 Come on.
格蕾丝刚从东河转过来 Grace just transferred here from East River,
她花了两年时间为《公报》撰稿 where she spent two years writing for the Gazette.
你们两个都拥有非凡的深度 作家你的年龄 You both possess remarkable depth for writers your age.
这就是为什么我认为你们两个会做 Which is why I think that you two will make
一个真正充满活力的主编二人组合 a truly dynamic editor-in-chief duo.
不 什么？ No. What?
再过一次？ Uh, one more time?
我不想当编辑 I don't want to be an editor.
但是谢谢你 But thank you.
嗯 Um...
嘿 Hey.
-你为什么说不？ -什么？ - Why'd you say no? - What?
你为什么说不？ Why'd you say no?
你为什么在乎？什么？ Why do you care? What?
你为什么在乎？ Why do you care?
呃 我没有 Uh... I don't.
我想 对于一个作家来说 这只是一个很好的机会 It's just a good opportunity for a writer, I guess.
我只是不明白你为什么说不 I just don't get why you would say no.
好吧 好吧 别让它让你晚上睡不着 All right, well, don't let it keep you up at night.
该死 Oh, shit.
什么？ What?
我刚没赶上公共汽车 I just missed my bus.
不能走路？ Can't walk?
嗯 不 我是说 我可以 Um... no, I mean, I can.
只是很远 It's just far.
这就是我坐公共汽车的原因 Uh, that's why I take the bus.
我的房子在它 My house is up there.
我有车如果你想的话 我可以送你一程 I have a car. I can give you a ride if you want.
是的？ Yeah?
谢谢 Thanks.
嘿 你喜欢 内赫拉达 ？ Hey, so you like "Nehradah"?
聂鲁达 Neruda.
哦 Oh.
哦 嗯 Oh. Um...
是的 我只读了一节 Yeah, well, I only read a stanza,
但我认为它真的很漂亮 but I thought it was really beautiful.
你这样认为吗？ You think so?
是的 你没有吗？ Yeah. Do you not?
不 我只是觉得人们就这么说 No, I just think that's what people say
当他们读一首他们不明白的诗时 when they read a poem that they don't understand.
嗯 Hmm.
完成它 Finish it.
让我知道 如果你仍然有同样的感觉 And let me know if you still feel the same way.
嗯.这是一个很酷的地方 Huh. It's a cool place.
如果你有车 你怎么步行去学校？ How come you walk to school if you have a car?
我不喜欢开车 I don't like driving.
-你有执照吗？ -是的 - Do you have a license? - Yeah.
我会照顾你的 I'd Take care of you.
这是一首好歌 It's a good song.
如果你让我 If you ask me to
你住在这样的房子里 但是你没有车？ You live in a house like this, but you don't have a car?
我想我的成绩不够好 不能买车 所以 I guess my grades aren't good enough for a car, so...
嗯 Hmm.
多谢 Thanks a lot.
呃 Uh...
好吧 明天见？ Well, I'll see you tomorrow?
好 Okay.
亨利 怎么了 苏兹？ Henry. What's up, Suds?
你 呃 回来什么的？ You, uh, just get back or something?
不 刚离开 Mmm, no. Just leaving.
我迟到了 I'm late.
那个女孩是谁？ So, uh, who's the girl?
-什么女孩？ -那个把亨利带回家的人 - What girl? - The one that drove Henry home.
一个女孩开车送你回家？ A girl drove you home?
她把车开走了 She left her car here and walked away.
运行 Run.
是啊 你打算什么时候再搬出去？ Yeah, when are you gonna move back out again?
别理她她向爱情宣战了 Ignore her. She's declared war on love.
不 只是欺骗混蛋 No, just on cheating assholes.
你今天能见到他吗？哦 我的上帝 Will you see him today? Oh, my God.
他是我的出席者 妈妈 He's my attending, Mom.
我今天要见他几次 I'll see him several times today.
那么 第一天回来怎么样？ So, how was the first day back?
好 是的 很好 Good. Yeah. It was good.
你拿到了吗？ Did you get it?
呃 Uh...
-是的 -哦 - Yeah. - Oh.
是的 你做到了 Yeah, you did.
恭喜你 亲爱的 Congratulations, sweetie.
干得好 Nice work.
好了 得走了爱你 伙计们 Okay, got to go. Love you, guys.
那个女孩是谁？ So, who's the girl?
我会照顾你的 I'd Take care of you.
如果你让我. If you'd ask me to.
一两年后 In a year or two.
哦哦哦哦哦哦哦 Oh-oh-oh.
我不爱你 如果你是盐玫瑰 "I do not love you as if you were the salt-rose,
传播火的康乃馨的托帕石或箭 topaz or arrow of carnations that propagate fire.
我爱你 因为某些黑暗的东西是被爱的 I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
在秘密 阴影和灵魂之间 in secret, between the shadow and the soul."
阴影和灵魂 "...the shadow and the soul."
我爱你喜欢不开花的植物 "I love you like the plant that does not bloom,
但携带本身 隐藏 but carries within itself, hidden,
这些花的光 the light of those flowers."
多亏了你的爱 我身体里黑暗地生活着 "...thanks to your love, lives darkly in my body..."
从地球上升起的某种固体香味 "...a certain solid fragrance that has risen from the earth."
我爱你 不知道如何或何时何地 I love you without knowing how or when or from where.
我爱你直白 没有复杂性或骄傲 I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride,
其中没有你 也没有我 in which there is no you nor I,
如此接近 你的手在我的胸口是我的 so close that your hand upon my chest is mine.
如此接近 你的手放在我胸前是我的 So close that your hand upon my chest is mine.
如此关闭 你的眼睛闭上 因为我的梦想 "So close that your eyes close as I dream."
我不知道你说什么 但成功了 I have no idea what you said, but it worked.
什么？ What?
我觉得报纸对她真的是件好事 I think the newspaper's gonna be a really good thing for her.
我们将有四个问题 11月的第一次 6月的最后一次 We will have four issues... the first in November, the last in June.
前三种是花园品种期刊 The first three are garden-variety periodicals:
重击新闻 体育 功能 喜欢 Hard-hitting news, sports, features, the like.
但最后一个 那是我们获得创意的地方 But the last one, that's where we get creative.
在小组的帮助下 亨利将选择一个主题 With the help of the group, Henry will choose a theme,
你将有点菜布兰奇探索这个主题 and you will have carte blanche to explore that theme
随便 as you see fit.
最后一个问题将是这个团队的遗产 That last issue will be this team's legacy,
分享您累积的智慧的机会 an opportunity to share your accrued wisdom
和学生一起在你身后 with the students behind you.
我不只是在谈论你花了四年时间 I'm not just talking about the four years that you've spent
在这栋楼的墙壁上 within the walls of this building.
我说的是比那更大的 I am talking bigger than that.
我说的是你在这个星球上17年的总时间 I am talking about the totality of your 17 years on this planet.
最后 但最不重要的 格蕾丝在这里加入我们 Last but not least, Grace here joins us
从我们邻近的学校 东河预备 from our neighboring school, East River Preparatory,
并且会帮助亨利帮助所有的事情社论 and will lend Henry a helping hand with all things editorial.
现在 这里是凯尔和他的团队在去年的最后一期所做的 Now, here's what Kyle and his team did for last year's final issue.
嗯 对不起 凯尔糟透了 Um, I'm sorry. Uh, Kyle sucks.
很有建设性 拉 Very constructive, La.
好吧 嗯 Well, okay, um...
去年的最后一期确实有点糟糕 the final issue last year did kind of suck.
好吧 All right.
嗯 嘿 所以我不知道你有什么想法 Um, hey, so I don't know what your thoughts...
所以 我不写 So, I'm not writing.
如果你有话要说 你可以自己说 If you have something to say, you can just say it yourself,
我会帮忙编辑和设计和 and I'll help with, like, editing and design and...
我处理设计 I handle design.
那么 除了设计 其他一切 Well, everything other than design then.
但只是不是 只是不写作 But just not... just not writing.
我是助理编辑 And I'm assistant editor,
因为很明显你为此努力工作 because apparently you worked very hard for this,
所以它应该是你的 so it should be all yours.
看来科拉又喜欢你了 Looks like Cora's into you again.
她怎么了？ Yo, what is the deal with her?
她盯着我 嘲笑我所有的笑话 She's making eyes at me, laughing at all my jokes,
就像这个气囊 and it's like this air pocket that's, like,
连接我们 它只是充满了 像 棉花糖 connecting us, and it's just filled with, like, marshmallows,
软糖熊 和怪异的泡泡糖和火花 gummy bears, and freakin' bubble gum and sparklies,
就像 如果我吃了它 and it's just like, if I eat it,
我要像去年一样再买一个腔 我不能 I'm gonna get another cavity like last year, and I can't.
嗯 很好的比喻 Hmm, good metaphor.
谢谢 我很感激 Thank you. I appreciate it.
嘿 格蕾丝汉卡德 Hey, Grace. Hankard.
我 这是我们的巴士！ I, um... This is our bus!
其实没有机会告诉你 ...actually didn't get a chance to tell you,
我写完了那首诗 I finished that poem.
而且 是的 And, um... yeah.
我还是觉得它很漂亮 I still think it's beautiful,
但不是以正常的方式 but not in the, uh, normal kind of bullshit way.
嗯 嗯 我想也是 Um, which, uh, which I think is also
诗是关于什么的 因为 你知道 kind of what the poem's about, 'cause, you know,
内鲁达对她的爱不是来自 Neruda's love for her doesn't come from, like, uh...
阳光 玫瑰和陈词滥调 Sunshine and roses and cliché stuff.
你知道 它来自 嗯 她 缺陷 You know, it comes from, um, her... flaws
和她的不完美 比如 黑暗的地方 and her imperfections, like, darker places.
汉卡德！呃 来自 Hankard! Uh, comes from...
来吧 你调情！ Come on, you flirt!
我猜她有潜力成为谁 ...I guess who she has the potential to be
不只是她是谁 and not just who she is.
所以 我不知道 So, I don't know.
所以 用那种方式美丽 你知道的 So, beautiful in that kind of way, you know.
你会再次错过你的巴士 You're gonna miss your bus again.
我看见你了 I see you.
他在干什么？ What's he doing?
你觉得我可以再坐一程吗？ Um, you think I could get another ride?
确定 Sure.
我会照顾你的 I'd Take care of you.
如果你让我. If you'd ask me to.
谢谢你让我再次开车回家 Thanks for letting me drive myself home again.
你去哪儿？你为什么去？ Where do you go to? Why do you go?
你的颜色是什么？你的心情如何？ What are your colors? What are your moods?
看到你 我转身 为了了解你 我燃烧 To see you, I turn. To know you, I burn.
-好的再见 -哦 我的天 - Okay. Bye. - Oh, my God,
当她说西班牙语时 它杀了我 it kills me when she speaks Spanish.
你不想说 怎么了？ 为什么？这样她又可以鬼我了？ Don't you want to say, "What's up?" Why? So she can ghost me again?
我的意思是 再见 伙计们 I mean... See you, guys.
呃 再见 Uh, see you.
再见 嗯嗯 Bye. Uh-huh.
再见 Bye.
他妈的 Fuck.
嗯. Meh.
嗯.梅梅 Meh. Meh-meh.
那个小 嗯 是什么？ What was that little "meh-meh" thing?
呃 哦 嗯 嗯 Uh... oh, um... um...
我只是 我们 当我们只是 I just... we... when we're just,
嗯 我想 恼火 我们只是这样做 um, I guess, annoyed, we just do that.
我不知道 嗯 I don't know. Mmm.
嗯 Um...
呃 你觉得你今天会送我一程吗？ Uh, you think you'd give me a ride today, maybe?
嘿 你想进来出去玩吗？ Hey, do you want to come in and hang out or something?
我今天不能 I can't today.
好 Okay.
嗯 Um...
明天见 所以 好 I'll just see you tomorrow then, so... Okay.
亨利？ Henry?
嗯？ Hmm?
六点在这里见我 Meet me here at 6:00.
好 Okay.
是的 我可以见面 Yeah, I can meet... -00.
是的 Yeah.
带一条面包来 Bring a loaf of bread.
-你的车怎么了？ -它回到我家了 - What happened to your car? - It's back at my house.
你开车回去 然后走到这里吗？ Did you drive it back and then you walked here?
我们不需要它 We don't need it.
加油 Come on.
那是19世纪一家棉纺厂 It was a cotton mill in the 1800s,
然后 and then...
他们做了塑料瓶 直到它关闭在 1989 年 我想 they made plastic bottles until it shut down in 1989, I think.
你必须保持安静 You have to be quiet.
-哇 -嘘 - Whoa. - Shh.
你会把他们吓跑的 You'll scare them away.
过来这里 Come here.
你有过女朋友吗？ Have you ever had a girlfriend?
呃 不 Uh, no.
呃 不是真的 Uh, not really.
为什么不呢？ Why not?
呃 你有过男朋友吗？ Uh... You ever had a boyfriend?
不 No.
那有什么交易？ So what's the deal?
我不知道 I don't know.
嗯 Um...
我不太擅长这些东西 I'm not really good at this stuff.
我以为你是个作家 Well, I thought you were a writer.
呃 是的 我是说 没错 Uh... yeah, I mean, exactly.
我现在也许可以回家了 I could probably go home right now
给你写点我为什么没有女朋友 and write you something about why I've never had a girlfriend,
像一篇文章或什么的 like an essay or whatever.
哦 所以你只需要编辑一切 Oh, so you just have to edit everything.
不 不是编辑 No, it's not editing.
只是 写作 我想 有时帮助我 It's just, writing, I think, sometimes helps me...
理解我自己 我想 因为 understand myself, I guess, 'cause...
很多时候 我真的不知道我对某事的感觉 a lot of times, I don't really know how I feel about something
直到我真正坐下来想想 until I really sit down and think about it.
但是 我的意思是 你也没有分享太多 But, I mean, you haven't shared much either.
我在游泳池里做了一些物理治疗 I did some of my physical therapy in a pool.
九个月前 Nine months ago,
汽车在弯道上转向 the car swerved coming around a bend
撞上了岩石屏障 汽车翻了个身 and hit the rock barrier and the car flipped.
并不是说这真的很重要 Not that it really even matters.
当我看那个的时候 When I look at that,
它提醒我 it reminds me
人只是死星的灰烬 that people are just the ashes of dead stars.
我们只是原子的集合 We're just a collection of atoms that...
一起一小段时间 come together for a brief period of time,
然后 我们分崩离析 and then... we fall apart.
当这一切结束的时候 When all of this is over,
我们被分散到无名 and we're dispersed back into nothingness...
我们有一块干净的石板 we have a clean slate.
就像把你所有的罪都抹掉一样 It's like having all of your sins wiped away.
你确定你不想为报纸写作？ Sure you don't want to write for the paper?
你需要消灭什么罪？ What sins do you need wiped away?
我曾经是一个破坏者 I used to be a vandal.
你干的？ You did this?
我14岁时 When I was 14.
那是什么拉丁语？ What is that, like, Latin?
这是什么意思？ What's it mean?
我累了 我要 回家 I'm tired. I'm gonna... head home.
呃 Uh...
你要我 Do you want me to...
你能找到回去的路吗？ Can you find your way back?
是的 呃 Yeah. Uh...
但你没事吧？是的 很好 But are you all right? Yeah, fine.
谢谢你出去玩 Uh, thanks for hanging out.
嗯 Um...
当然 随时 Yeah, sure. Anytime.
请不要说我们完成了 当我没有完成 Please don't say we're done When I'm not finished
因为我可以付出更多 'Cause I could give So much more
让你感觉像以前一样 Make you feel Like never before
欢迎 他们说欢迎到地板上来 Welcome, they said Welcome to the floor
有一段时间了 你发现 It's been a while And you've found...
你为什么还起床？ Why are you still up?
嗯 只是努力 Um, just working on this.
是爸爸妈妈在生日那天给你的吗？ Is that the one Mom and Dad got you on your birthday?
嗯嗯 Mm-hmm.
不要 嘿 还在干 Don't... hey. It's still drying.
触觉 触觉 亨利 Touchy, touchy, Henry.
有时候我仍然需要你 Sometimes I still Need you
有时候我还需要你 Sometimes I still need you
有时候我仍然需要你 Sometimes I still Need you...
对于一个17岁的男孩来说 这是一个奇怪的爱好 It is an odd hobby for a 17-year-old boy.
有时候我还需要你 Sometimes I still need you
你知道 呃 心碎触发 Did you know that, uh, heartbreak triggers
大脑的面积和身体疼痛一样？ the same areas of the brain as physical pain?
当我想到他离开我时 When I think about him leaving me,
我的大脑向我的神经系统发出求救信号 my brain sends a distress signal to my nervous system.
它提高了我的血压和心率 And it elevates my blood pressure and my heart rate,
给我胸痛 giving me chest pains.
好 Okay.
我挣扎着进入 And I was struggling To get in...
它正在发生 It's happening right now.
你要我去找妈妈吗？ Do you want me to go get Mom?
哦 上帝 不 拜托 Oh, God, no, please.
耶稣 Jesus.
亨利 嗯 Henry. Um...
接下来呢？是的 What's next? Yeah.
嗯 嗯 好吧 Um, uh, okay.
嗯 我想我们都有可能放出来 Um, I was thinking we all could kind of just put out
最后一期的主题的一些想法 a few ideas of themes for the final issue.
没有时间像现在这样 No time like the present.
三脚架爱丽丝梦游仙境主题怎么样？ How about a trippy Alice in Wonderland theme?
你知道 我们都掉了酸 You know, like, we all dropped acid
然后走下兔子洞 and went down the rabbit hole.
现在 太紧了 我可以用那个 Now, that's tight. I could work with that.
恩典？ Grace?
什么？ What?
有什么想法吗？ Any ideas?
我不知道 I don't know.
没有？ None?
是的 这就是 我不知道 的意思 Yeah, that's what "I don't know" means.
我能上厕所吗？我得小便了 Can I go to the bathroom? I have to pee.
答案是肯定的 Of course.
问问她怎么回事 Just ask her what's going on.
不 我不知道 No, I don't know.
我觉得我还不太了解她那样 I feel like I don't know her like that yet.
我不知道 你应该跟着她 I don't know. You should follow her.
什么？是的 What? Yeah.
你不想看看她去哪儿吗？ Don't you want to see where she goes?
哦 如果她和男朋友出去玩呢？ Oh. What if she's hanging out with her boyfriend?
哦不 Oh, no.
我不会跟踪她的 I'm not gonna stalk her.
也许我在找你 Maybe I was looking for you.
显然 我不会去看你的 Clearly, I wasn't going to see you.
只是觉得很奇怪 It just felt strange,
想告诉你 wanting to tell you...
你会下来谈谈也许 Would you be down to talk over maybe
一些主题的想法或什么的？无论你选什么都是好的 some theme ideas or something? Whatever you pick is fine.
好 Okay.
我们是否应该 我只是运行我的最后选择由你 然后 Should we just, like... I just run my final selections by you then, or...
我是说 这真的对我来说并不重要 I mean, it really doesn't matter to me.
我刚从杰德那里得到了一个新功能 I just got a new feature in from Jade,
所以我要编辑一下 so I was just gonna edit that.
哦 Oh.
我想匹配这些 但相反 我会匹配这个 I'd like to match those, but instead I will match this.
嘿 爸爸 我能用这辆车吗？ Hey, Dad, can I use the car?
嗯 当然 当然 去哪？ Uh, sure, sure. Where to?
嗯 Um...
我不知道 无处可去 真的 I don't know. Nowhere, really.
那你要去哪里？ So, where are you going?
这不是盘问 It's not a cross-examination.
我是说 感觉就像这样 I mean, it feels like that.
你要求我们把车借给你 Well, you're asking us to lend you our car,
我们问了一个简单的问题作为回报 and we're asking a simple question in return.
我只是 我不知道 我要去穆兹家 Okay, um, I'm just... I don't know. I'm just gonna go to Muz's.
现在能给我钥匙吗？你甚至没有使用它 Now can I have the keys? You're not even using it.
您有权享有隐私保护 You're entitled to your privacy.
如果你不想让我们知道一些事情 就这么说吧 If you don't want us to know something, say so.
但不要用谎言来侮辱我们 But don't insult us with a lie.
它在你下面 It's beneath you.
只是 你可以优步 Just... You can Uber.
什么？我不能优步 我没有信用卡 What? I can't Uber. I don't have a credit card.
那你就得走路了 Well, then you're gonna have to walk.
操！ Fuck!
你好 嘿 怎么了？ Hi. Hey. What's up?
所以 昨晚我睡不着 So, I couldn't sleep last night,
所以我在看克莱因夫人的教学大纲 so I was searching through Mrs. Klein's syllabus,
我注意到一个非常有趣的趋势 and I noticed a very interesting trend.
呃 Uh...
看看他们 好 Look at them. Okay.
嗯 是的 Um, yeah.
他们和年轻人有关？ They're, um, all about young people?
而且它们都涉及自杀 And they all involve suicide.
罗密欧和朱丽叶自己关闭 Romeo and Juliet off themselves.
韦瑟开枪自杀 Werther shoots himself.
霍尔登考虑自杀 Holden contemplates suicide.
康拉德试图用割腕自杀 Conrad tries to kill himself by slashing his wrists.
这就是你昨晚所想的？ This is what you were up thinking about last night?
是的 Yeah.
这正常吗？哦 天啊 Is that normal? Oh, Jesus.
什么？我 What? Well, I...
你 You...
你 呃 好像 这个星期似乎下来了 You, uh, like, seemed down this week,
所以我觉得有点吓人好 so that's a little scary, I guess. Okay.
我该怎么解释？ How do I explain this?
嗯 好 Um... okay.
想想当青少年意味着什么 好？ Think about what it means to be a teenager. Okay?
你父母迫使你成功 Your parents pressure you to succeed.
你的朋友迫使你做你不想做的事 Your friends pressure you to do shit you don't want to do.
社交媒体迫使你憎恨你的身体 Social media pressures you to hate your body.
这很难 即使你是一个好家庭的孩子 It's hard, even if you're a well-adjusted kid from a good family.
好 Okay.
所以 现在想象你不能和爱的人在一起 So, now imagine you can't be with the person that you love,
像罗密欧和朱丽叶或韦瑟 like Romeo and Juliet or Werther,
或者你失去了你爱的人 or you lose the person that you love,
像霍尔登或康拉德 like Holden or Conrad.
有一个原因 当每个作者 There's a reason why, when every author,
从莎士比亚到塞林格 写年轻人 from Shakespeare to Salinger, writes about young people,
他们不能回避真相 they can't avoid the truth, that...
年轻是如此痛苦 being young is so painful,
这几乎是 就像 太多的感觉 it's almost, like, too much to feel.
是的 你是 Yeah, are you, like...
自杀或 suicidal or...
不 上帝 我的意思是 No. God. I mean...
听着 我不会自杀的 Look, I'm not gonna kill myself.
但是 我有没有想过 只是不在这里会是什么感觉？ But have I thought about what it would be like to just not be here anymore?
是的 Yeah.
我不随便说 但我确实说 And I don't say that casually, but I do say it
因为隐藏那狗屎 不说它使情况更糟 because hiding that shit and not saying it makes it worse.
应该谈谈 It should be talked about.
我们所有的狗屎都应该被谈论 All of our shit should be talked about.
嗯 Mmm.
少年时代是 地狱 The teenage years are... limbo.
你介于孩子和成年人之间 You're somewhere between being a kid and an adult,
世界 呃 告诉你要成熟 and the world, uh, tells you to be mature
表达自己 但一刻 你做 and express yourself, but the minute that you do,
它告诉你闭嘴 it tells you to shut up.
问题是 成年人只是伤痕累累的孩子 他们足够幸运 The thing is, adults are just scarred kids who were lucky enough
使它从边缘活着 to make it out of limbo alive.
这就是为什么 Which is why...
我们最后一期的主题应该是 青少年林博 the theme of our last issue should be "Teenage Limbo."
是的 Yeah.
亨利的妹妹正在学习成为一名神经外科医生 Henry's sister is studying to become a neurosurgeon,
她解释说 青少年的大脑经历了升级 and she explained that the teenage brain goes through an upgrade
在它成熟到成人的大脑之前 before it matures to an adult brain.
所以 升级就像连接和突触的爆炸 So, the upgrade is like an explosion of connections and synapses
当我们弄清楚什么是正确的 as we figure out what's right.
或是错误的 Or wrong.
我们喜欢什么 我们不喜欢的 What we like, what we don't like.
你知道 我们想成为谁 You know, who we want to be.
问题的每一页 Each page of the issue
是大脑精炼自己 搞清楚自己 is the brain refining itself, figuring itself out,
直到最终它摆脱边缘 until eventually it's out of limbo.
所以吸毒 So dope.
是的 涂料 Yeah. Dope.
好吧 甜 All right. Sweet.
嗯 所以我想我们可以只是 Um... so I think we could kind of just
开始 一种讨论 像我们困惑什么 start a... kind of a discussion, like what are we confused about,
什么 呃 也许吓到我们了 what, uh, maybe scares us.
嗯 比如 也许有事吗？ Um, like, are there things maybe
你呆在你害怕的里面 you keep inside that you're afraid to...
嗯 Um...
你有什么事吗？ Do you have something?
嗯 Um...
嗯 是的 我是说 是的 但是我正打算 Well, yeah, I mean, I do, but I was gonna...
我想我要写它 呃 那 I think I was gonna write it, uh, which...
嗯 Hmm.
嗯 Um...
几年前迈克·约翰逊自杀的时候 Uh, when Mike Johnson killed himself a couple years ago,
嗯 um...
我意识到我还有这个 I realized that I still had, um, this...
赫斯特勒杂志 他给了我 当我们 像 13 Hustler magazine that he gave me when we were, like, 13
他从他爸爸的收藏中偷来的 that, uh, he stole from his dad's collection.
而且 And, um...
我不知道 I don't know.
承认这一点我觉得很愚蠢 I feel really stupid admitting this,
但是 嗯 有点吓到我了 but, um, kind of freaked me out.
就像 我晚上真的睡不着 Like, I couldn't really sleep at night
把这本杂志放在我的抽屉里 with this magazine in my drawer.
好像 Um, like it was just kind of...
比如 闹鬼什么的 like, haunted or something.
嗯 Um...
基本上 它太重要了 不能扔掉 And basically, it just was kind of too important to throw away,
但它也太奇怪了 不能保持 but it was also too weird to keep,
所以我去了艺术公园附近的树 so I went to the tree by the art park,
一个他 呃 吊自杀的地方 one where he, uh, hung himself,
而我 嗯 只是把它埋在那里 and I, um, just buried it there.
而且 And, um...
是的 嗯 Yeah. Um...
我不知道 很奇怪 因为第一次 I don't know. It was weird, 'cause for the first time,
我已经足够大了 可以理解死亡的严重性 I was old enough to understand the gravity of death,
但我也 嗯 你知道 足够年轻 but I was also, um, you know, young enough
这一切都归结为一个愚蠢的 像 色情杂志 that it all came down to just a stupid, like, porn magazine.
我为你分享这个而感到骄傲 I'm proud of you for sharing that.
这一定很难为你 It must have been hard for you.
谢谢 Thanks.
嘿 你为什么放弃写作？ Hey, why'd you give up writing?
你显然有很多想法 You've obviously got a lot of ideas.
对我很重要的人 死 Somebody really important to me... died.
而且 And, um...
我被要求写点什么 说点什么 and I was asked to write something, to say something,
就像悼词 因为每个人都知道我是作家 like a eulogy, because everyone knew that I was the writer,
而且 你知道 告诉我我的话是多么美丽 但是 and, you know, told me how beautiful my words were, but...
什么事都来不来了 我就是找不到单词 Nothing came. I just couldn't find the words.
什么？ What?
哦 不 真有趣 Uh, oh, no, it's just funny.
嗯 因为 你知道 我说话的时候找不到单词 Um, 'cause, you know, I can't find the words when I talk,
当你写作时 你找不到单词 and you can't find the words when you write.
这让我发笑 That just made me laugh.
你知道我的意思？ You know what I mean?
冷骨 Cold bones
是的 那是我的爱 Yeah, that's my love...
无论如何 谢谢你 是的 我觉得 Thank you, anyways. Yeah, yeah. I feel like it's...
你不必喝它 不是我不要 You don't have to drink it. It's not that I don't want it.
当然 是的 Yeah, sure... Yeah.
哦 她知道 Ooh, does she know
我们流血一样 That we bleed the same...
这个周末你想去看电影吗？ You want to see a movie this weekend?
我想我不可能 I don't think I can.
哦 Ooh...
你还有其他计划吗？ You got other plans?
不 我只是有一吨的事情要做 No, I just have a ton of stuff to do.
你过去常跑轨道？ So, you used to run track?
是的 我是短跑运动员 Yeah, I was a sprinter.
哦 你以前还干过什么？ Oh, what else did you do in your previous life?
天啊 Oh, God.
Lit 杂志 年鉴工作人员 学生政府 Lit magazine, yearbook staff, student government...
啤酒乒乓球冠军 beer pong champion.
嗯 第一场足球赛是星期五晚上 如果你想去的话 Um, first football game is Friday night, if you want to go.
不是我在乎的 而是很有趣 Not that I care, but it's fun.
我们通常赛前 每个人都去 We usually pregame, and everyone goes.
听起来很有趣 但我不能 That sounds fun, but I can't.
不过 另一次 Another time though.
你会说你做过的最愚蠢的事是什么？ What would you say is the dumbest thing you've ever done?
嗯 也许当我把手指 Um, probably when I put my finger
在一年级的电动铅笔磨刀 in an electric pencil sharpener in first grade.
没走 嗯 超级好 It didn't go, um, super well.
你认为会发生什么？ What did you think was gonna happen?
我想我以为它会修剪我的指甲 I guess I thought it would trim my fingernail.
在夜晚 In the night
哦 她知道我们流血一样吗？ Ooh, does she know That we bleed the same?
哦 Ooh...
我曾经擅长社交 I used to be good at socializing.
我是说 我过去经常这么做 I mean, I used to do it all the time.
什么改变了？ What changed?
我想我已经不再看重点了 I guess I stopped seeing the point.
有时候 滑入自己的黑暗深渊更容易 Sometimes it's just easier to slip into your own dark abyss
忘记世界的存在 and forget the world exists.
她逃跑了 Did she run away...
是的 我有时在你们中看到她 Yeah, I see her in you sometimes,
比如 这些 嗯 你曾经的这个女孩的闪光 like, these, um, flashes of this girl that you used to be.
嗯 但她是一个行为 你现在更像你自己 Um, but was she an act and you're more yourself now,
还是恩典 我知道一个行为 or is the Grace that I know an act
直到你再次感到舒服？ until you feel comfortable being yourself again?
我不知道 人会改变的 I don't know. People change.
你不一样 你14岁时是同一个人 There's no way you're the same person you were when you were 14.
嘿 呃 Hey, um...
什么？ What?
好吧 所以海斯林明天晚上要举行一年一度的万圣节派对 All right, so Heslin is having his annual Halloween party tomorrow night.
而且它不一定是一件大事 And it doesn't have to be a big thing.
不一定是约会或者别的什么 Doesn't have to be a date or whatever.
不 这不是原因 No, that's not why.
我想可以 这不是原因 I think it could... That's not why.
也许 嗯 只是好玩 ...maybe be, um, just fun.
最好 对你有好处 It'd be good to... good for you,
有点回去做老格蕾丝的事情 嗯 kind of get back to doing old Grace things. Um...
哦 新的恩典对你好还是 Oh, is the new Grace not good enough for you or...
不 不 不 我不是这个意思 No. No, no. That's not what I meant.
嗯 不 我想 嗯 Um, no. I think, um...
嘿 嘿 Hey, hey.
我们走吧 Let's go.
-是吗？ -是的 - Yeah? - Yeah.
你的钥匙 Your keys.
我能进来吗？ Can I come in?
你不必去什么地方？ You don't have to go somewhere?
不 我今天不会去我去的地方 所以 No, I'm not going to where I go today, so...
好的 是的不 完全 是的？ Okay, yeah. No, totally. Yeah?
是的 进来 Yeah, come in.
给我两个 Give me two.
我拿三个但你先得到三个这里 I'll take three. But you get three first. Here.
嘿 伙计们 怎么了？嘿 亨利 Hey, guys. What's up? Hey, Henry.
嘿 Hey.
加入我们吧 宝贝呃 现在不能 Join us, bud. Uh, can't right now.
但这是格蕾丝 But this is Grace.
你好！ Hi!
哦 是格蕾丝！ Oh. It's Grace!
-是的 -是的你真的进来了 - Yeah. - Yeah. You actually came in.
到现在我们才看到你的车 We've only seen your car up until now.
就去这儿捡这些东西 Just gonna pick up this stuff here.
哦 我的爱人 Oh, my love...
这是怎么打破的？ How did this break?
哦 呃 Oh, um...
实际上 我打破了它 I broke that, actually.
呃 叫金津库罗伊 Uh, it's called Kintsukuroi.
是这种老派的日本艺术形式 It's kind of this old-school Japanese art form
在那里你修补破碎的陶器与金缝 where you mend back broken pottery with seams of gold.
哦 我的爱人 Oh, my love
别着急 Take your time
看穿 See it through
我会照顾你的 I'd Take care of you....
等等 嗯 这是 Wait, uh, is this...
哦 这是你喜欢在车里演奏的歌 Oh, it's the song that you like to play in your car.
你没事吧？ Are you okay?
一两年后 In a year or two....
你为什么 你为什么玩这个？ Why are you... why are you playing this?
我是说 我不知道我喜欢 我 I mean, I don't know. I like it. I...
有点让我想起我们 我想 Kind of reminds me of us, I guess.
嘿 嘿 Hey. Hey.
对不起 我玩过我不知道 I'm sorry I played that. I didn't know.
我以为 我不知道 I thought... I don't know.
我们总是一起在车里听 We listen to it all the time in the car together.
好吧 但这不是我们的歌 好吗？ Okay, but it's not our song, okay?
好 不是为了你我 Okay. It's not for you and me.
好 是为谁准备的？这是什么？ Okay. Who's it for? What is it?
阁下 Dom.
他是我男朋友 He was my boyfriend.
他开车 我搞砸了我的膝盖 但他 He was driving the car, and I fucked up my knee, but he...
哦 对不起 我没有 Oh. I'm sorry. I didn't...
我明白如果你不想 I understand if you don't want to, like...
如果你不想对我做任何事 If you don't want to do anything with me...
嘿 Hey.
你能让我开车送你回家吗？不 拜托 Can you let me drive you home? No, please.
请停下 亨利为什么？ Please stop, Henry. Why?
因为我搞砸了 好吗？加油 怎么了？ Because I'm fucked up, okay? Come on. What's wrong?
我能开车送你回家吗？是的 不 请 Can I drive you home? Yes. No. Please.
请？加油 为什么？不 Please? Come on. Why? No.
我搞砸了没关系 我不在乎 I'm messed up. It's okay. I don't care.
不 不是！ No, it's not!
不是当你意识到我不是你他妈的花瓶之一 好吗？ It's not when you realize that I'm not one of your fucking vases, okay?
你们觉得这需要在这里吗？ You guys think this needs to be here?
-不 -你说得对 - No. - You're right.
我觉得我们不需要它 I don't feel like we needed it anyway.
没道理 严重？ It doesn't make sense. Seriously?
嘿 伙计们 你今晚要去海斯林家吗？ Hey, guys. Are you going to Heslin's tonight?
是的 也许 Yeah. Maybe.
我们可能会过来的酷 We might come through. Cool.
嗯 我希望你这样做 Well, I hope you do.
嗯 Hmm.
埃尔克斯什么时候来接我们？ What time is Elks picking us up?
嗯 我不知道我不会去的 所以 Um, I do not know. I'm not going, so...
不 不 不 不 不 我们要走了 No. No, no, no. No, we're going.
一个小美丽的生物 谁可能是像我一样仙女王国的一部分 A little beautiful creature, who might be a part of the fairy kingdom like myself,
刚邀请我到她神奇的森林 just invited me to her magical, enchanted forest.
我要借此机会飞 And I'm gonna take this opportunity to fly.
嗯. Meh.
嗯 自己 "Meh" yourself.
不要因为那个小妞而掉水 Don't dip out 'cause of that chick.
什么？ What?
我需要你在那里得到道义上的支持 I need you there for moral support.
不 不是她的原因我感觉不舒服 就这些 No, it's not 'cause of her. I'm not feeling well, that's all.
哦 我的上帝 哇 Oh, my God. Wow.
埃尔克斯有库什 Elks has Kush.
什么样的库什？ What kind of Kush?
放松点 兄弟轻松中 轻松出 Take it easy, bro. Easy in, easy out.
是马拉松 不是短跑 It's a marathon, not a sprint.
是的 我明白 Yeah, I know.
嘿 怎么了？ Hey. What's up?
她已经在跟别人说话了 She's already talking to someone else.
我知道我不应该抱太大的希望她只是在玩我 Man, I knew I shouldn't have gotten my hopes up. Man, she's just playing me.
去 Go.
去 去 我需要放松一下 兄弟 Go. Go. I need to ease into it, bro.
为什么？ Why?
亨利·佩奇 Henry Page.
我不能我不能 I cannot. I can't.
再见 亨利 Bye, Henry.
冲进来 他的手在脸上 ...comes sprinting in, his hands are over his face,
他只是吐了他只是到处吐 and he just pukes. He just pukes everywhere.
没人知道该怎么做 No one knew what to do.
就是在这小小的缝隙之间 It was between this tiny little crevice
在墙壁和冰箱之间 between the wall and the fridge...
我只是去拿些水什么？ I'm just gonna get some water. What?
我只是去拿些水 I'm just gonna get some water.
你没事吧？是的 我很好 Are you okay? Yeah, I'm good.
给你这个 Got you this.
谢谢 是的 Thank you. Yeah.
什么？ What?
你看 嗯 You look, um...
托蒂？ Thotty?
我正打算说热 I was gonna say hot.
嗯 是我去年的服装 Well, it's my costume from last year.
你没事吧？ Are you doing okay?
是的 在这一刻 我 我没事 Yeah. In this moment, I'm... I'm okay.
我觉得你是最令人困惑的人 I think you're the most confusing human being
我见过 I've ever met.
我想我是最困惑的人 And I think I'm just the most confused human being
你见过 这让你迷惑不解 you've ever met and that confuses you.
是的 Yeah, well...
我现在很垃圾 I'm, uh, pretty trashed right now,
所以我想我更困惑了 so I guess I'm even more confused.
我让你下来 下来 下来 I'm turning you up to getting Down, down, down...
嘿 我一直在找你 Hey, I've been looking for you.
哦 是的？是的 Oh, yeah? Yeah.
去年 我 Uh, so last year, I, uh...
我明白了 I get it.
很奇怪 It was weird.
我们可以做朋友 We can just be friends.
酷 Cool.
去年夏天我和很多女孩勾搭上了 I hooked up with a lot of girls last summer.
好 Okay.
是啊 呃 我们 Yeah, uh, I was just really confused after we...
你知道的 you know.
我知道 我不知道 I know. I don't know.
我想 我想 嗯 弄清楚 I tried to, uh, figure that out, I guess.
但 But...
我意识到我对他们中的任何一个都没有任何感觉 I realized that I didn't feel anything for any of them.
我不一定知道如何给自己贴上标签 但是 I don't necessarily know how to, um, label myself, but...
我知道当你在我面前时我的感受 I know what I feel when you're in front of me.
就像 It's like, uh, we are...
或者 呃 我们. Or, uh, we be.
那我们来 Then let's just be.
如果是物理的 And if it's physical
保持潜意识 Keep it subliminal
告诉我你想要什么 Show me what you want
让我看看你的心 Show me a piece Of your heart
你爱的一块 A piece of your love
我叫你下来 下来 下来 I'm calling you up to getting Down, down, down...
这些黑鬼不是你什么都不是 宝贝 These niggas ain't nothing On you, baby
你明白了 明白了 You got it, got it
你跑屎的方式 让它雨得这么好 The way you run shit And make it rain so well
我的伯金包 My Birkin bag...
哦不 Oh, no.
我不会跳舞不 I can't dance. No.
哦 是的 Oh, yeah
这些黑鬼不是 '布特它 '它 These niggas ain't 'Bout it, 'bout it
这些黑鬼不是你什么都不是 宝贝 These niggas ain't nothing On you, baby
你明白了 明白了 You got it, got it
你跑屎的方式 让它雨得这么好 The way you run shit And make it rain so well
我的伯金包我的粉红色戒指 My Birkin bag My pinky ring
大衣尾 Coattail
哦 是的 Oh, yeah
别停看着我 Don't stop looking at me.
别停看着我不 不 Don't stop looking at me. No, no
别停看着我 Don't stop looking at me.
别停看着我不要 Don't stop looking at me. Don't
别停看着我 Don't stop looking at me.
别停看着我不要 Don't stop looking at me. Don't
别停看着我 Don't stop looking at me.
别停看着我不要 Don't stop looking at me. Don't
别停看着我 Don't stop looking at me.
别停下来 Don't stop...
等等 等等 坚持 Wait, wait. Wait, wait, wait. Hold on.
希望你没有高期望值 I hope you don't have high expectations...
因为我可能很生疏 'cause I'm probably pretty rusty.
我希望你也没有很高的期望 Well, I hope you don't have high expectations either,
因为我以前从没做过 'cause I've never done this before.
你有避孕套吗？ Do you have a condom?
是的 是的 Yeah. Yeah.
我应该拿到吗？拿一下 I should get it? Get it.
拿好 好 Get it, okay.
哦 天啊 Oh. Oh, God.
让我来好 Let me do it. Okay.
对不起 紧张的时候我笑了 I'm sorry. I laugh when I'm nervous.
你要我做吗？是的 确定 Do you want me to do it? Yeah. Sure.
亨利 亨利 亨利 亨利 亨利是的？ Henry, Henry, Henry, Henry. Yeah?
不要试图擅长它 好吗？ Don't try to be good at it, okay?
和我在一起 Just be here with me.
好 Okay.
留言 Leave your message.
嗯 嘿 格蕾丝我只是想打个招呼 Um, hey, Grace. Um, just want to say hi,
那 and that, um...
你知道 尽管我缺乏经验 you know, despite my lack of experience,
嗯 希望 嗯 昨晚只是有点意思 um, hope that, uh, last night just kind of meant
一小部分给你 因为它意味着我 a tiny fraction to you as it meant to me.
是的 嗯 And, yeah, um...
然后 我保证如果我们有机会再做一次 嗯 Then also, I promise if we ever get the chance to do it again, um...
我是说 因为不是那个 I mean, 'cause not that...
我不够自负 以为我们会 I'm not presumptuous enough to think that we will,
但是 如果我们这样做 那么 嗯 你知道 but, like, if we do, then, uh, you know,
我保证会更好 I promise that it'll be better.
呃 不 我会好起来的 Uh, no, that I'll be better.
嗯 因为 嗯 你知道 Um, 'cause, uh, you know,
嗯 练习确实使 嗯 完美 um, practice does make, uh, perfect.
所以 嗯 是的 So, uh, yeah.
再见了 Bye-bye.
哦 妈的 那太蠢了 Oh, fuck, that was dumb.
什么？ What?
惊喜 怎么会这样？ Surprise. How did this happen?
只是时间 It was just time.
妈的好吧 Shit. All right.
我们要去哪里？ Um, where are we going?
你会知道的 You'll see.
单色这是一个土星世界 Monochrome It's a Saturn world
躺在戒指下面 Lying beneath the rings
他们告诉我 我们的时间不长 And they tell me We don't have a long time
直到我们的衰落 Till our decline
所有的成年男人都以自己的方式设置 All the grown men Are set in their ways
在街上闪耀 Shining in the street
他们告诉我 我们的时间不长 And they tell me We don't have a long time
出色的设计 A great design
在他死之前 我们一直都来这里 We used to come here all the time before he died.
我喜欢这个驱动器 I loved this drive.
我希望能够再次爱它 I want to be able to love it again.
我需要你在这里 I needed you here.
我需要你的支持 I needed your support.
拿着这个 Hold this.
这是工厂的吗？ Is this from the factory?
这是什么意思？ What does it mean?
救救我 我会救你 "Save me, and I will save you."
那是我们 That was us.
我想继续前进 I want to move on.
所以让我们假装 So let's pretend
我们没有重量 That we have no weight...
我告诉你 夏尔马 I'm telling you, Sharma...
把他的眼镜掉到马桶里了 ...dropped his glasses right into the toilet.
他差点把他们冲到那里 He nearly flushed them down there.
但他把它们捞出来 因为他戴着同样的眼镜 But he fished them out, 'cause he got the same glasses on.
我们很年轻 有时间 We're young, have time...
不 我 我 No, I sw... I...
我能加入你们吗？ Can I join you guys?
我们跑出来 Out we run
好 好了 明白了吗？ Okay. Okay, got it?
是的 那很有帮助 好的 很好 Yeah, that was very helpful. Okay, good.
谢谢 不客气 Thank you. You're welcome.
嘿 所有适合打印的新闻 Hey, with all the news that's fit to print,
你的第一个问题！ your first issue!
祝贺！ Congratulations!
嗯 嗯 是的 Well... Hmm. Yeah.
今晚我不会放弃 I won't give it up tonight
今晚我不会放弃 I won't give it up Tonight
今晚我不会放弃 I won't give it up tonight
今晚我不会放弃 I won't give it up Tonight
呆在这儿 Stay here.
那是谁的车？呆在这儿 亨利 Whose car is that? Stay here, Henry.
你不该记住吗？ Aren't you supposed to remember that?
不 我不记得了！ No, I don't remember that!
我不想 不 不 去！去！ I don't want... No, no. Go! Go!
嘿 Hey.
那是妈？ That your mom?
不 No.
是的 不会 问题 Yeah. It doesn't... matter.
你没事吧？ You all right?
我很好 我们能走了吗？ I'm fine. Can we go?
你和你爸爸住在一起吗？ So do you live with your dad?
我的意思是 I mean,
我只是觉得我对你的家人一无所知 I just feel like I don't know anything about your family.
是的 好吧 你知道的够多了 Well, yeah. Well, okay, you know enough.
显然发生了一些事情 Something obviously just happened,
所以我不知道我该怎么帮你 so I don't know how I'm supposed to help you...
你没有 你不帮我 You don't. You don't help me.
我没有请求你的帮助 所以别想帮我了 I didn't ask for your help, so stop trying to help me.
别想修理我 好吗？ Stop trying to fix me, all right?
哦 看看这个 Oh, look at this.
这是这里的一个棒棒棒的大会 It's a lollygagging convention in here.
走吧 人们 Let's go, people.
我们还有三个问题要计划 We have three more issues to plan.
好想看点焦点 拜托 I'd love to see a little focus, please.
亨利 你的犯罪伙伴呢？ Henry, where's your partner in crime?
我不知道 I don't know.
她病了？ She sick?
我不知道 I don't know.
今天是她出事的周年纪念日 Today's the anniversary of her accident.
哦 亲爱的 我 我不知道 Oh, dear. I, um... I didn't know that.
是的 东河为她男朋友举行了烛光守夜活动 Yeah. East River had a candlelight vigil for her boyfriend.
她开车吗？她有执照吗？ Does she drive? Does she have her license?
我们应该 Should we be...
你可能是对的 You're probably right about that.
留言 Leave your message.
我想是的 你会吗？ I would think so. Would you?
是的 Yeah.
我不知道 乱搞 I don't know. Muck around.
多吸一点 淤泥 Muck around a little more. Muck.
什么？停下 不 哦 哦 What? Stop it. No. Ow.
停止 乱搞 Stop. Muck around.
汉卡德汉卡德你要去哪里？ Hankard. Hankard. Yo, where you going?
亨利？ Henry?
是你？ That you?
是的 Yeah.
快进来 Come on in.
我一定是在管子前睡着了 I must have fallen asleep in front of the tube.
顺便说一下 我是马丁 I'm Martin, by the way.
哦 Oh.
这是我妻子莎拉 This is my wife Sarah.
-嗨 -你好 - Hi. - Hello.
格蕾丝谈了很多关于你的事 Grace has talked a lot about you.
说你是好朋友 Says you've been a good friend.
我只是想确定她没事 Yeah, I just wanted to make sure that she was okay,
因为我今天没跟她说话 'cause I didn't talk to her today.
嗯 你知道的 Um, and, you know,
考虑到今天是什么日子 我 我 given what day it is, I... I, uh...
嗯 她应该很快就到家了 Well, she should be home pretty soon.
如果你想的话 你可以在楼上等 You can wait upstairs if you want.
嗯 谢谢你很高兴见到你们 Um, well, thank you. It was good meeting you guys.
是的 很高兴见到你 亨利是的 Yeah. Nice meeting you, Henry. Yeah.
现在你知道了 So now you know.
-你住在这里吗？ -是的 - Do you live here? - Yeah.
事故发生前一个月我搬来 想离开我妈妈 I moved in a month before the accident to get away from my mom.
她喝了很多酒 而且她的身材很糟糕 She was drinking a lot, and she was in really bad shape.
但你还在这里 But you're still here.
我还能去哪里 我妈妈男朋友的沙发？ Where else was I supposed to go, my mom's boyfriend's couch?
你回去了？ You went back for that?
你洗他的衣服吗？ Do you even wash his clothes?
因为你穿他的衣服 对吗？ 'Cause you wear his clothes, right?
我尽了最大的努力 I'm doing the best that I can.
你尽了最大的努力 但你住在他妈房间里？ You're doing the best you can, but you're living in his fucking room?
我们一起长大 We grew up together.
他 他是我的家人 He was... he was my family.
我不是要你放他走 I'm not asking you to let him go.
我给你我一切 I'm giving you all that I can.
而这个 混乱和这种疯狂 And this... confusion and this craziness
就是那个样 is what that looks like.
你不能处理它 但我从没想过你会 And you can't handle it, but I never expected you to.
我还能给你什么？ What else could I possibly give you?
你还能给我什么？ What else can you give me?
你他妈的 Are you fucking...
哦 这太疯狂了这太疯狂了 Oh, this is crazy. This is crazy.
停下来不 你停下！ Just stop. No, you stop!
别再领我了！我只是 Stop leading me on! I just...
我没有从哪儿开始和你约会 I didn't start dating you out of nowhere or something.
我告诉过你别管我 I told you to leave me alone.
是的 但后来你告诉我不要 Yeah, but then you told me not to.
嗯 因为我不知道 Well, because I don't know.
因为我不知道 Because I don't know.
我知道 我不知道 I know. I don't know.
我很困惑 亨利 I'm confused, Henry.
我不知道 我知道！ I don't know. I know!
从一开始我早就知道我爱你了 I've known since, like, the very beginning that I love you.
我不能假装更好 因为那是你想要的 I can't pretend to be better because that's what you want.
你说你想变得更好我愿意 You said you wanted to get better. I do.
我还没准备好我不是 I'm not ready yet. I'm not...
是的 但我还没准备好 I do, but I'm not ready yet.
我 Well, I...
我不在乎 好吧？ I don't care. All right?
是的 你会的 我 不 我没有 Yes, you do. I... No, I don't.
我不在乎 I don't care.
说真的 我想要你正是现在的样 Seriously, I want you exactly the way you are.
但你得让我来和我谈谈 But you just got to let me in and talk to me.
我爱你 I love you.
你为什么那样吻我？ Why do you kiss me like that?
比如？ Like what?
就像你爱上我一样 Like you're in love with me.
这是我知道怎么做的唯一方法 It's the only way I know how.
盘子在烤箱里给你 太 Plate's for you in the oven, toots.
-亨利？ -什么？ - Henry? - What?
怎么了？什么 What's wrong? Nothing.
过来这里 加油 Come here. Come on.
我们只是想知道发生了什么 We just want to know what's going on.
是格蕾丝吗？ Is it Grace?
只是普通人经历的常规狗屎 It's just regular shit that regular people go through
你不会明白的 that you are not gonna understand.
拜托 我们不是普通人？ Oh, come on. We're not regular people?
不 不 你在开玩笑吗？ No. No. Are you fucking kidding me?
从你当我和同龄的时候 你们的关系就很完美了 Your relationship's been perfect since you were my age.
我拿到这个了 不不不不 I got this. No, no, no, no, no.
我们该走了妈妈 We should go. Mom.
他是对的 你不明白 He's right. You don't understand.
知道了 I got it.
你们分手了吗？是的 Did you guys break up? Yeah.
我甚至不知道我们是否真的在一起 I mean, I don't even know if we were actually together.
也许只是路上的颠簸 Maybe it's just a bump in the road.
不 她不想要我 No, she doesn't want me.
发生了什么事？ What happened?
她爱上别人了 She's in love with someone else.
该死 Oh, shit.
好 Okay.
你想要好消息还是坏消息？ You want the good news or the bad news?
也 Neither.
嗯 坏消息是会疼的 Well, the bad news is it's gonna hurt.
你的大脑已经习惯了稳定的溪流 Your brain has gotten used to a steady stream
多巴胺和催产素 又来了 of dopamine and oxytocin. Here we go again.
是的 我明白 对不起 这就是原因 Yeah, I know. I'm sorry, but that's what causes
所有那些幸福的爱情感觉 all those blissed-out feelings of love.
现在它被压力荷尔蒙所取代 And now it's replaced with stress hormones.
它们会让你感觉像垃圾一样 They're gonna make you feel like garbage.
头痛 肌肉紧绷 胸闷 Headaches, tight muscles, tight chest.
你的身体渴望那些感觉良好的化学物质 Your body's craving those feel-good chemicals.
基本上是撤退了 It's basically withdrawal.
哦 真棒 Oh, awesome.
是的 是的 Yeah. Yeah.
昨天是我没想到的第一天 Yesterday was the first day I didn't think about him.
明天我要去我的第一次约会 And tomorrow I'm going on my first date.
亨利 嗯？ Henry. Hmm?
爱 这是一种化学反应 来来去 Love... it's a chemical reaction that comes and goes.
心碎也是 So is heartbreak.
你的大脑会调整 Your brain adjusts.
你的身体化学恢复正常 Your body chemistry changes back to normal.
都是浪费时间 It's all a waste of time.
哦不 Oh, no.
嘿 Hey.
如果可以 你会把它全部拿回来吗？ Would you take it all back if you could?
你不能 You can't.
她现在是你的一部分了 She's a part of you now.
你是想 Are you trying to...
你要一直抄袭我吗？好 Are you gonna copy me this whole time? Okay.
没有 但我实际上有一个真正的问题 等 No, but I actually have a real question. Wait.
你不能这么做 那边是什么？ You can't do that. What's over there?
我成功了 I did it.
你要去哪里？ Where you going?
嗯 我不知道 Um... I don't know.
只是不想看这个 Just don't want to watch this.
哇 Wow.
你不能为别人高兴嘘 You just can't be happy for anybody else. Boo.
甚至不要 别这样 Don't even... don't do that.
别这样 Don't do that.
哇 Whoa.
小心！ Watch it!
-哦！ -哇 你看到了吗？ - Oh! - Whoa, did you see that?
恩典？ Grace?
你没事吧？我需要 Are you okay? I need to...
-我要告诉你 -什么？你需要什么？ - I need to tell you. - What? What do you need?
我要告诉你 I need to tell you.
-什么？ -我要说 多姆 - What? - I need to say it, Dom.
我要说 多姆 I need to say it, Dom.
好吧 说吧 Okay, say it.
应该是我 It should have been me.
不 不 应该是我 No. No. It should have been me.
是啊 你这个混蛋！ Yes, you fucking asshole!
是我的错！ It was my fault!
不 不是 格蕾丝是的 是的 No, it wasn't, Grace. Yes, it was.
-不 不是 -你叫我别戏弄你了 - No, it wasn't. - You told me to stop teasing you.
你告诉我的 You told me.
你告诉我 我不听 You told me, and I didn't listen.
我没听没关系 I didn't listen. It's okay.
我只是想让你笑 I just wanted to make you laugh.
-没事的没关系 -但你叫我停下来 - It's okay. It's okay. - But you told me to stop.
哦 对不起 没关系 Oh, I'm sorry. It's all right.
对不起 对不起！ I'm sorry. I'm sorry!
没关系 没关系 It's okay. It's okay.
没关系 It's okay.
我觉得他转过身来 I felt him swerve.
我知道 在一分之一秒内 And I knew, in that fraction of a second,
我们要崩溃 that we were gonna crash.
事情发生前我最后想到的是 嘘 And my last thought before it happened was, "Shit."
我一生最后想到的就是 嘘 The last thought I was about to have in my entire life was, "Shit."
我没想到多姆 I didn't think about Dom.
我甚至都没想到他 I didn't even think about him.
那能让我成为坏人吗 亨利？ Does that make me a bad person, Henry?
不 No.
让你成为一个人 Makes you a person.
我想知道他在想什么 I wonder what he was thinking about.
我想知道他最后的想法是什么 I wonder what his last thought was.
他在想你 格蕾丝 He was thinking about you, Grace.
保证它 Guarantee it.
我正打算穿那件衣服嫁给他 I was gonna marry him in that dress.
不 你留着它外面很冷 No, you keep it. It's cold out.
快宣布 各位 Quick announcement, everyone.
如果我可以引起大家的注意 请 If I might have everyone's attention for a moment, please.
谢谢 Thank you.
所以 我想让你知道 格雷斯镇已经决定 So, I wanted to let you know that Grace Town has decided
从学校休息一段时间 to take some time off from school
处理一些个人问题 to deal with some personal issues.
而且 嗯 当她回来时 她宁愿专注于她的学习 And, um, when she returns, she'd prefer to focus on her studies
而不是报纸 rather than the newspaper.
我相信我们会非常想念她的 I'm sure we'll all miss her very much,
但是 嗯 这听起来像 but, uh, it does sound like
这是她目前最好的决定 this is the best decision for her at this time.
我知道这个消息可能会让人失望 I know this news might come as a disappointment,
但我想让你知道 我有最大的信心 but I want you to know that I have the utmost faith
在这群人 in this group of people.
产生三个明星问题 To produce three stellar issues.
当你还是个青少年的时候 When you're a teenager,
你大脑中的化学物质驱使你做决定 the chemicals in your brain drive you to make decisions
把你从童年的安全中撕下来 that rip you away from the safety of your childhood
把你拖进成年的荒野 and drag you into the wilderness of adulthood.
一个朋友曾经告诉我 大人只是 A friend once told me that adults are just
伤痕累累的孩子谁足够幸运 scarred kids who were lucky enough
使它从青少年的边缘活着 to make it out of teenage limbo alive.
我敦促你出去 I urge you to go outside
透过棱镜看世界 and look at the world through that prism.
看看你的父母 你的哥哥姐姐 Look at your parents, your older siblings.
看看你在街上经过的陌生人 Look at strangers you pass on the street.
看着他们 想象 在他们生命中的一个时刻 Look at them and imagine that, at one point in their lives,
他们也走了这些大厅 they too walked these halls.
他们也感受到了难以忍受的孤独 They too felt the unbearable loneliness,
绝对无法忍受的无能为力 the absolute unbearable powerlessness
和年轻的黑暗 and darkness of being young.
二号！ Number two!
这是三个 This is three.
我们往往认为伤疤是丑陋或不完美的 We tend to think of scars as ugly or imperfect...
作为我们想要隐藏或忘记的东西 as things we want to hide or forget.
但他们永远不会消失 But they never go away.
当我写这篇文章时 As I write this,
我上次的社论 my last editorial...
我终于明白了 I finally understand
伤疤不是提醒什么被打破 that scars are not reminders of what's been broken,
而是所创造的 but rather of what's been created.
嘿 嘿 Hey. Hey.
让我们 Let's...
祝贺 Congratulations.
是的 你也是 Yeah, you too.
谢谢 是的 Thank you. Yeah.
明年你要去哪里？ Where are you off to next year?
我要去本宁顿 I'm gonna go to Bennington.
这是佛蒙特州的一所学校 It's a school in Vermont.
适合写作 好 It's good for writing. Nice.
你在做什么？ What are you doing?
呃 我要请一年 Uh, I'm taking a year off.
只是继续治疗 Just continuing therapy.
哦 Oh.
是的 直到我 Yeah, I was never gonna be ready until I was...
准备好了 你知道吗？ ready, you know?
你当然知道 Of course you know.
是的 Yeah.
我得再去找我的话了 I have to go find my words again.
是的 Yeah.
你会的 You will.
我只想说 I just want to say...
你是一个非凡的原子集合 亨利佩奇 you are an extraordinary collection of atoms, Henry Page.
嘿 那是汉卡德吗？ Hey, is that Hankard?
汉卡德！汉卡德！ Hankard! Hankard!
我们走吧 Let's go.
嗯 我想我要走路了 Um, I think I'm gonna walk.
要走路吗？ Gonna walk?
嘿 哇哇 Hey, whoa.
我也要去走路 I'm gonna walk too.
感受我燃烧的爱 Feel this burning Love of mine
除非是真的 It's no good Unless it's real...
这是一个漫长的步行 想有公司吗？ It's a long walk. Want some company?
是的 我愿意 Yeah, I do.
野眼转弯 Wild-eyed turning.
直到我们离开它 Till we're running from it.
我会照顾你的 I'd Take care of you.
如果你让我. If you'd ask me to.
一两年后 In a year or two.
哦哦哦哦哦 Oh-oh-oh.
你说在湖里游泳 You say swimming in the lake.
我们会碰到一条蛇 We'll come across a snake.
是真的 然后就是假的 It is real And then it's fake.
感受它的心跳 Feel its heartbeat.
感受你热的 Feel what you heat.
太快了感觉太晚了 Far so fast It feels too late.
我会照顾你的 I'd Take care of you.
如果你让我. If you'd ask me to.
一两年后 In a year or two.
哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦哦 Oh-oh-oh.
我会照顾你的 I'll Take care of you..
照顾好你 Take care of you.
确实如此 That's true.
我会照顾你的 I'll Take care of you..
照顾好你 Take care of you.
确实如此 That's true.
我会照顾你的 I'll Take care of you..
照顾好你 Take care of you.
确实如此 That's true.
我会照顾你的 I'll Take care of you..
照顾好你 Take care of you.
确实如此 That's true.
我会照顾你的 I'll Take care of you..
照顾好你 Take care of you.
确实如此 That's true.
我会照顾你的 I'll Take care of you..
照顾好你 Take care of you.
确实如此 That's true.
我会照顾你的 I'll Take care of you..
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